I wasn’t doing well at all.
On a human level, the equation for “make life work” seemed pretty simple. And I couldn’t believe how much I was blowing it. In reality, I had fallen under the spell that Chesterton calls the great calamity of the riddle of the earth: I had forgotten who I was and the story in which I truly live.
And then came the rescue. Over a few weeks. First came a few (more) books on the training and tactics of the US Navy SEALs. And then a prompting to watch the Lord of the Rings extended trailer again and again. It was smelling salts. I woke up and recovered an orientation that had been lost. Something was righted deep in my soul. And as my hero Bart says, yet again, I became Dangerous for Good.